It would happen...

A couple months ago or so, I submitted a blog post about being tested for PCOS and my journey through that. I believe it was entitled 'Grin and bare your teeth'. Apparently, I spoke too soon with that. I told you I had tested negative for PCOS, but it turns out I haven't been given the all clear yet. The lady on the phone must have interpreted it wrong, because I soon received a letter telling me to book an appointment to see my doctor about it. This is the second time it's happened to me, so it didn't come as a huge shock. So off I went, trooping to the surgery around the corner, with a sense of cold foreboding upon me.

My doctor was very friendly, kind and sympathetic, and basically was just really nice to me. He told me I wasn't completely in the clear for PCOS, because my hormones don't quite match up with how they should be. I'm now waiting on a letter for an ultrasound. It's been a couple of weeks since I saw the doctor, and I'm on new pills which he gave me, in the hope it would help my symptoms somewhat. The pills are great, they don't make me nauseous, they don't make me depressed and I haven't suffered any adverse effects yet. This process has made me so tired, but it's made me grow as a person. In spite of what it's put me through emotionally, I wouldn't change a second of it, because it's helped me become who I am, as cheesy as that sounds.

I've come to a point where I've reached a sort of conclusion with my journey. There are two possible endings. If I have PCOS, I might not be able to naturally have children, but there are treatments out there - IVF, things like that, and I could adopt if can't conceive those ways. If it's not meant to be, I won't have children, because that was never meant for me. If I don't have PCOS, I might still be able to easily have children, but again, if it's not meant to be, then it isn't meant to be. We'll see what happens, and I'll let you know. Who knows, if I have it, this might turn into a 'Coping with PCOS' blog. If you're going through the same thing, don't go through it alone. Something that's kept me alive is knowing that my friends and family were with me all the way.

If you need a friend, someone to talk to, any advice, contact me at my Advice column on The Student Review website. They're usually entitled AJ's Advice, there's a link to TSR just below my top banner. http://www.thestudentreview.co.uk

AJ