Feeling Upside-down

Feeling upside-down - to me that's the nauseous feeling where your stomach wants to live where your mouth is and your mouth wants to live in your intestines, thus giving you an upside-down feeling. I often feel a bit like this. It can be from irritation or anxiety, or maybe you just have stomach flu. Either way, it means you need to chill out for a little while and let it pass.

I've been feeling upside down for about a week now, and it's beginning to pass. This week will mark the beginning of my last year in school. I think that scares me more than anything else right now. I mean, in a way it's nice, because some of my worst times have been at school, but so have some of my best. I nearly completely dropped out of school last year. I genuinely would have if the parents had let me. I wasn't in a good place, and i just didn't have the motivation to...well...be there.

But I kept at it. I just kept pushing, and I think that's the best way to get through some things sometimes. I've had to push a lot the last couple of years, and I do feel very tired. I do sound like a drama queen, don't I? A song lyric that really springs to mind when I'm feeling like this is 'And I'll admit, I don't want you to get me through this.' I go through things alone a lot of the time. I talk, hell yeah, I talk about it, but sometimes its not enough, because people don't really know what you're saying unless they've gone through it.

But that's not always the best way to go. This is partly why I've started blogging again. Someone out there will be feeling the same as me, and hopefully, my blogging will help. I'm not that interesting, not a celebrity, just a normal person, who keeps going and writes about it on the way. I hope someone finds me helpful...or interesting.

AJ